postscript...

the last two days were the longest i experienced..i was home alone for the holidays and i was so tired doing nothing i thought i was gonna die from inactivity...but i'm glad i managed to survive..hehehe..no mean feat really considering that it was christmas...but this coming 31st of december i'm gonna go home then the following day i'll be in baguio to meet my college buds..looking forward to that...

jaded

i wrote an entry 1st week of december unfortunately i accidentally pressed the wrong key and poooff..!! it was deleted..anyway christmas is just a couple of days away, i just sent some of the presents i got to a select few(hehehe) but the season doesn't excite me the way i felt when i was younger(there!finally i admitted i'm old...)in fact the day before christmas i'll be at work along with the rest of the reps who are not on leave of absence..and christmas eve i'll spend christmas alone...i don't have plans of celebrating it and most likely i'll sleep the night away...yeah...i'm just jaded.....

payback....

haha..finally i'm losing weight..the past two weeks of controlling my food intake has finally paid off.i'm losing inches albeit, slowly...it feels good to know that you can achieve what you really want to if you strive to meet it...it's a small step and it may not be a big deal to some but heck, i plan to continue what i'm doing even with the holidays looming for the simple reason that i feel good...

maudlin....

BrickBen Folds Five
(Whatever & Ever Amen)

6am day after Christmas

I throw some clothes on in the dark

The smell of coal

Car seat is freezing

The world is sleeping I am numb

Up the stairs to her apartment

She is balled out on the couch

Her mum and dad went down to Charlotte

They're not home to find us out

And we drive

Now that I've found someone

I'm feeling more alone

Than I ever had before

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

They call her name at 7:30

I pace around the parking lot

And I walk down to buy her flowers

Sell some gifts that I got

Can't you see,

It's not me you're dying for

Now She's feeling more alone

Than she's ever had before

She's a brick an i'm drowning slowly

Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

As weeks went by

It showed that she was not fine

They told me son

It's time to tell the truth

And she broke down

And I broke down

Cause I was tired of Lying

Driving back to her apartment

For the moment were alone

And she's alone

And I'm alone

And now I know it

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly......

idle....

after almost a month of neglect,i'm ready to post a new entry...can't think though of a good topic to write about coz nothing much happened during my hiatus...the monotony of my existence does't really bother me at all for i've been wallowing in it since time immemorial..hehehe...pathetic huh?not really..actually i enjoy my laidback life...it only goes awry when fortuitous events occur...i'm never the gimikero type but i'm not antisocial..i prefer staying at home and lounge around...and when i go out i only do it with a select few(as if it's a privilege for them to be with me..hahaha)that's the way i like things to be.. i wanna do stuff at my own leisure...no pressures...no hassles... i dig horror movies and ben folds five's brick... i dunno... i just have this penchance for this somber and depressing song...weird...here's the whole lyrics....sing it if you know it..and lemme know what you think or feel about the song....

broke(n)....

i've been absorbing negative vibes recently and again for the nth time i'm depressed.i'm torn between two warring friends,i've been giving advice to a person i barely know(marital woes,dang and i'm not even married!!?), one of my friends broke up with her beau and she's in suicidal mode,again one of my friends has been dealing with serious emotional and moral problem, i have my own hang-ups to attend to and i don't know how to deal with all these depressing news....this is my first time to be caught up in a sea of negativity and i am overwhelmed...i thought that after giving pieces of advice i'd be okey...that i won't be burdened by all the problems i've heard...but it turns out otherwise...it's so onerous to be thinking of a problem that's not even yours and try to figure out how you can ease their situation...i should've taken up psychology at least i would have known how to deal with this...so right now i'm still bothered and confused and overwhelmed and depressed and god knows what...i need help....any amount will do....

post-halloween post

we had our halloween party cum battle of the bands held at hard rock cafe makati.it was a sunday,the weather was kinda gloomy and i had second thoughts bout attending the said event...we'll curiousity got the better part of me so i went...didn't have regrets coz it was one helluva party...the bands were great,the music was good but the food was not..and the event will be shown on mtv this 17th and 18th so i get to have my 15 minutes of fame...(if ever i won't be edited...hahaha)right mr. warhol?we went out around 11 and then we proceeded to cable car to continue the fun.i got to sing out loud, shamelessly..thanks to several mugs of draft beer...okey, while im typing this we're almost ready to go home,,there are no more calls and i'm dying to get a shut-eye....adios...

gelid.....

i've done reading memoirs of a geisha and i'm currently perusing contact by carl sagan...two different genres from two equally excellent writers....memoirs is really a good read, brilliant in its nuances and most of the time funny...the author really did a good job in presenting to the reader the minutest details on how a young girl trains to become a geisha and how they live after passing the tests...behind the humor is a poignant story of a girl hoping to be reunited with her family and to finally fulfill her desire to have the man whom she had been longing to spend the rest of her life with...i'm halfway with my reading with contact and it's actually a welcome respite to finally read a science fiction book after more than a year..i used to read isaac asimov novels but carl sagan is equally erudite.i've seen the movie version of the novel and i can say that i enjoyed watching the movie and i like the book as well...i have several pending books to read but i don't feel pressured to finish reading all of 'em.i enjoy the pace...anyhow..i'll be discussing my views on the previous novels i've read...and ill be posting as well in my future blogs my top 10 favorite tomes of all time...tata...XXXX'SSSSS....my title for this entry is not related to what i just wrote...that's because it's really cold while i was composing this post...hahaha:0)

techie....

i just finished making some major changes on my friendster account...check it out...

whine and dine....

i've been trying to veer away from the usual depressing topic i'd like to post on my blog but it seems like i can't get out of it...but anyway my depression's slowly dissipating so i guess i'm on my way of moving on...i really can't explain why i've been depressed the last few weeks..definitely it's not caused by the linear passage of time(hehehe)...the hell i care...what's important is that i'm slowly inching my way back to my old self(pun unintended)...most times when i'm depressed i can't accept that i'm experiencing mid-life crisis on my late twenties...funny, right?it's not.i'm feeling like all the crap i've been dealing with for the past weeks has affected me psychologically...enough about this..it seems like i'm going in circles...for want of a better article to write ,i ended up with this sh*t

slug it out

im so full today i think i might puke...damn it...this is just one of the effects of stress...overeating..which leads to overweight...which leads to more bingeing....and ultimately to depression....it's a vicious cycle and i've been f**k*g strung out i wish i was somewhere else...what keeps me sane though is the fact that i've pending books to read...weird...most people i ask and know don't dig reading which puzzles me because there's so much joy in it....bulging waistline...unexplainable tiredness...sleep deprivation...skin breakouts...dark circles around the eyes....huh.... i never imagined my life to be like this....i don't wanna end up remorseful for choosing the path i am treading right now...i just hope that time won't come...

sounds.....goodaahhhh...

tapos na naman ang isang araw sa pakikipagbuno sa mga lahing puti at ibang ligaya ang aking nadarama sa tuwing sasapit ang ganitong oras(3pm..hehehe).marahil talagang mapagbigay ang mga taong kumokontrol sa mga tawag na dumarating sa amin dahil siguro sa kadahilanang alam nila na pagod na kami sa pakikaipag-usap gamit ang wikang dayuhan at dahil malamang alam na rin nila na tuyong-tuyo na ang aming mga lalamunan sa kakadaldal at pakikisalamuha sa mga walang kwentang tao.kung akala niyo na mga mang-aawit lang ang nagkakaroon ng "nodes"(di ko kasi maisalin sa wikang atin ang salitang ito)dahil sa napwepwersa ang kanilang mga lalamunan sa pagbirit sa pagkanta, nagkakamali kayo.gasgas na rin ang lalamunan ng karamihan(kabilang na ang inyong lingkod).pero dahil kailangang kumita kailangang magtiis dahil ito'y para sa bayan...wala lang nabubuwang lang ako kaya ganito...pasensya na po sa mga babasa s posteng ito(hehehehe...)dahil gusto ko lang magkaroon ng maisusulat at mailalathala sa blogs ko...

i'm overweight..dang

i'm borderline overweight and if this is left unchecked i'd be obese...just the thought of it makes me sick..dang...the irony of it is that as much as i would like to control my food intake i can't because ang sarap kumain...my friends and i are thinking of buying fat burner supplements but hearing its side effects make me think twice whether to go ahead and try it or not...it's kinda hard to lose weight if you don't have the will to pursue it...in other words you lack discipline(hehehe)...bahala na...for the mean time, bon appetit....

haaaa...life...

back 2 work after an hour's lunch break...i think i overate that's why i'm feeling sluggish right now otherwise work today's tolerable...i'm still not done reading BLEACHERS by john grisham but i plan to finish the book today (or tonight...)so far the book is entertaining..i hope the ending won't be as bad as what was told to me by a colleague...i'm actually waiting for a call to bug me as a i'm creating this post..hopefully i won't receive any more calls...but that is wishful thinking....too much sugar has caused me to be sleepy..i need a jolt..care to tell me how to get one???post your comments...

yahooo!!!

finally, i have my own blog account..okey, the good thing about having a day shift is that you can do anything you want after 3pm..and you get to have a social life as well.with the nature of our job i'm lucky i'm not assigned on the graveyard shift otherwise my life would be hell...