april full..

this month has been the best yet...april 6 was another d-day and on the 12th-13th i went to galera with my friends..'twas fun.....our company outing is in the offing and my birthday is near too...still experiencing euphoria....can't think straight...

getting laid..hehehe

it was near impossible but it occured..guess i'm just lucky that a twist happened....

personal dna

personal dna

back to normal..(almost)

i'm almost over the madness...after two weeks of acting catatonic i'm getting back in the circulation ..there are times when snippets of the good ol' days cross my mind but those are just shadows of what things used to be..thankfully i'm almost over that phase now and everything seems quite normal...but it would be double whammy if we could do it again one last time....nyahahaha...just wishing.:-)

back to you...

after the sabbatical leave i'm back..ready to chronicle the events that happened between the hiatus..yeah, i met someone who has made my monotonous life exciting..again..someone who made me lose my appetite(hahaha) and someone who took away my jaded view about life....the meeting was serendipitous due mainly to ennui..but that proved to be the start of an exciting rollercoaster ride...the first few meetings were exhilirating..surreal, in fact i actually have to shake off my head just to be sure it did happen..hahaha...there was a momentary sense of loss after the incident ended but everything is back to normal again(or so it seems..)dang...i still can't believe it happened...more details coming soon...

hohum....

just checking

postscript...

the last two days were the longest i experienced..i was home alone for the holidays and i was so tired doing nothing i thought i was gonna die from inactivity...but i'm glad i managed to survive..hehehe..no mean feat really considering that it was christmas...but this coming 31st of december i'm gonna go home then the following day i'll be in baguio to meet my college buds..looking forward to that...

jaded

i wrote an entry 1st week of december unfortunately i accidentally pressed the wrong key and poooff..!! it was deleted..anyway christmas is just a couple of days away, i just sent some of the presents i got to a select few(hehehe) but the season doesn't excite me the way i felt when i was younger(there!finally i admitted i'm old...)in fact the day before christmas i'll be at work along with the rest of the reps who are not on leave of absence..and christmas eve i'll spend christmas alone...i don't have plans of celebrating it and most likely i'll sleep the night away...yeah...i'm just jaded.....

payback....

haha..finally i'm losing weight..the past two weeks of controlling my food intake has finally paid off.i'm losing inches albeit, slowly...it feels good to know that you can achieve what you really want to if you strive to meet it...it's a small step and it may not be a big deal to some but heck, i plan to continue what i'm doing even with the holidays looming for the simple reason that i feel good...

maudlin....

BrickBen Folds Five
(Whatever & Ever Amen)

6am day after Christmas

I throw some clothes on in the dark

The smell of coal

Car seat is freezing

The world is sleeping I am numb

Up the stairs to her apartment

She is balled out on the couch

Her mum and dad went down to Charlotte

They're not home to find us out

And we drive

Now that I've found someone

I'm feeling more alone

Than I ever had before

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

They call her name at 7:30

I pace around the parking lot

And I walk down to buy her flowers

Sell some gifts that I got

Can't you see,

It's not me you're dying for

Now She's feeling more alone

Than she's ever had before

She's a brick an i'm drowning slowly

Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

As weeks went by

It showed that she was not fine

They told me son

It's time to tell the truth

And she broke down

And I broke down

Cause I was tired of Lying

Driving back to her apartment

For the moment were alone

And she's alone

And I'm alone

And now I know it

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly......